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Monday, 24 August 2020

THE LONGING OF A SUPPLICANT

 


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Whenever I miss you,
Which is as often
as the sun rising from the East,
The dawn of your thoughts
take possession
of my brittle mind
Penetrating through the cracked, glass window
of my soul
like the early sun rays
ready to conquer my heart
Yet one more time.
The adhan is but a symbol
of the timelessness
of my love
Waking me up from
the depths of my fantasy
The wudhu’s cold touch
hauls me back to reality
washing off me
the residues
of yesterday’s ache.

Whenever I remember you,
a strong tide
Of sorrow
takes over the
ocean of emotions
within my soul
Pulling me further out
Into the embrace of distance.
In absolute agony,
I lay down my mswallah
that you once gave me
And make i’tikaf on it
Talking to My Most Beloved
of you,
my beloved.
There is only one pure way
To love
So I raise my hands
to the Almighty
And place you
in His loving hands.
A testament of love
That none can dare
come between.

My tongue is wet,
heavy on the
Allahu Must3an
Because God knows
Only He can extinguish
The turmoil engulfing the
Heart of a lover
with flames
Of grief.
I call on the Lord of Ibrahim
to save me
from the blaze set on my being
I call on the Lord of Ayub
and the Lord of Ya'qub
to grant me
A beautiful patience
I call on the Lord of Yunus
to rescue me from
the hollowness of the darkness.

The hadith says,
‘The guider towards good
is like the doer’
So I recite every letter of the Qur’an
With reflection
With deliberation
Hoping that for every 10 rewards,
you get a share of it.
With every mention and longing,
during the wee hours of the night
you are raised in status
With every dua
that I beg Allah
To grant you,
The angels can say
‘And for you is the same’.

If we’re not meant to be
In this world
Then I am content
Cherishing your very existence
In the same universe as I do
Loving you at a distance,
Through my prolonged sujood.
Let the ground that I prostrate on
be a witness
Of all the times
I ask Allah
of His Mercy
Upon you.