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Can you hear that?
Is that your ridiculously slow heartbeat? Beating like it is being forced to do so. Like a lazy kid being pushed to wake up?
Can you feel that?
Your head thumping even while you are not sick. Your body aches yet you are as fit as never before. Listen keenly. Feel. Observe. It is your heart. It is tired. It is fatigued. It is in excruciating pain. It is hurting...and so is the whole of you.
But don't we all get tired sometimes? Physically, yes but it doesn't always start there right?
It starts with how stressed, sad, depressed you are. It is how tired you are of life. How you want to go somewhere very far and live alone. How you just want to disappear. How you wish to shut out everyone and anyone. How food is no longer attractive, not even your favourite Cheese cake. How time seems to be taking a casual walk like a tortoise. How everything seems to be dragging. So everything around you drags too, including your heart and your body.
You just want to get away because no one seems to understand you. Your hormones are reacting worse than those of a pregnant woman. You have excessive feels again and again. Sleep seems to be out of your dictionary at the moment, and when you finally get into that wonderland, you can't help but sleep for 16 or 20 hours. If possible, you would have slept for the whole week or three consecutive months or for eternity?
Yes, you are that tired and you don't know how to get out of your misery. You don't even know if you really want to get out of it. You just yearn for the quite impossible things at the moment. Like sleeping for 25/7 or staying away from job the whole year or going for a holiday twice a year, every six months. You are exhausted...
But sit up a moment. Think about it. How long are you going to let yourself drown in this? Remember, however long you stay sinking in your own storm, you are still the only one capable of pulling yourself out.
One thing that drug addicts refuse to admit is that however much of 'relaxation' or 'highness' they enjoy from drugs, one thing is never going to change; your misery will still stay put where it has always been. The problems will still be there even if you decide to be on drugs the whole week or month. Because once the soberness starts striking in your head, you wouldn't have made the situation any better. Instead, you got yourself one more problem of hangovers and addiction.
It is the same thing with you, even when you don't use drugs. You let yourself get lost in your frenzy world, over-eating or starving yourself, not sleeping or spending your entire time in sleep, worrying, worrying and always worrying. Thinking, thinking and more thinking. But you gotta wake up right? Soberness will creep in like a ghost, reminding you of all the piles and loads of undone work. You gotta shake that misery off. You gotta face your troubles. You gotta do what you have to.
Remember that not always will you have someone to rub off your tears while you cry an ocean or shove you under the cold shower when you can't even talk or hug you when having a panic attack. Sometimes you are all you got; Yourself.
So wake up now. Someone needs you. You need YOU. Sit up and think straight. Think of how to face your problems with bravery, patience and perseverance. Fix what you can fix and leave the rest to God. Just don't let yourself sink again. Don't let yourself be the definition of tired. You are capable of standing up and being what you always have been; strong.
Keep having faith. Better things coming in shaa Allah 
